Time is weird now

[schneefink]

Overall, I think I'm coping okay with *gestures* everything. It helps that here in Austria the lockdown worked quite well, though I'm worried about what'll happen now that many restrictions have been lifted.

Things I'm having difficulties with:
- Cleaning and tidying up and housework in general – fortunately since we don't get visitors at the moment, nobody cares.
- Going to bed on time. No idea why this specifically is difficult, but it sucks because of course lack of sleep makes everything else harder.
- Whenever I make a mistake it's hard not to immediately become very anxious. I think I'm getting slightly better but it's annoying.
- Talking to people is hard. Not to DD, but everyone else. I've been dodging some calls, I owe several people replies, not exactly sure why this takes so much more energy than usual.

Things going relatively well:
- I started setting regular alarms to drink something and it's actually working quite well, fortunately.
- I still go for a run once every week and it's nice to see how much progress I've made in only a few months.
- I always had problems studying at home, but thanks to my study group and the group project I mostly managed to keep up and am only slightly behind on everything.
- DD and I have a lot of time to cook together, which is nice. She's been experimenting with her new sourdough starter (we still haven't agreed on a name) and we had delicious bread, good pizza dough, blueberry "pancakes", quasi-Lángos… Luxury.
Btw, have I mentioned our new window box herbs? We now have oregano, thyme, verbena, marjoram, coriander, curry, parsley, chive, basil, lemon balm, two kinds of mint, and summer savory.
Edit: I forgot, we also have sage and lavender.
Next on our list: regularly make Smoothies again, because they're delicious (and incidentally also healthy.)

I'm still working from home, and probably will through May, no idea what'll happen after that. I saw my family again, that was nice. This weekend my D&D group is planning to meet again for the first time in many weeks, at least some of us, but instead of our usual D&D session we'll meet for BBQ and boardgames on a terrace large enough we can keep our distance, which I'm sure will be weird.
…aaand now I'm just procrastinating on going to bed, again.

Comments

[sallymn]

It's hard... they are easing restrictions here, and while part of me is glad and I'm in probably one of the least affected places in one of the best handled countries on the planet: it's still a worry.

I usually sleep well, wake up in the middle of the night sometimes, but I've taken to 'writing' the silliest fiction in my head until I drop off again. It doesn't matter that it never gets really written because it's so silly and it seems to calm and distract at 3 in the morning (which is a wretched time to be lying awake in bed).

My dreams seem to be more vivid than usual, but I read somewhere that is normal in stressful times, and a lotof folk are having it.

[schneefink]

Sucks to wake up too early. But it sounds like a fun way to tire your brain out again, at least :) Do you then even remember what you "wrote" in the morning?

I hadn't heard that about dreams, interesting! I've had some fun ones recently too, but I thought it's just because I'm paying more attention.

[sallymn]

I rarely remember much, but it doesn't matter because I know it's pretty rubbishy, and just keeps the brain from getting 3 in the morningish, and next time I can just 'write' something else :)

I don't remember exactly where I read that, but quite a new people have mentioned their dreams have recently been more intense, so I guess it makes sense.