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schneefinkLast edit, Monday 7am: DONE DONE DONE. SENT. I feel strange, I don't think I've quite realized it yet. Off to sleep.
Sooo, two days to finish my thesis! I had days this month when it went well and unfortunately more than I wanted that were less good. I stayed optimistic for the longest time, but then the last two days were unexpectedly terrible and now I'm... well, panicking is not quite right, but scared is not too far off. I could still do it, but it's becoming harder to convince myself that I'll manage when I haven't so far.
So, more lists, because crossing things off lists feels good, and making it public makes me feel ashamed when I can't do it and hopefully that helps.
What I still have to do today:
-write gender wage gap chapter
-go through sources on unpaid labor again, make & collect notes
-write chapter on unpaid labor
- create tablesand fill in a few details for gender segregation chapter
- create tables for gwg chapter
- tables for unemployment chapter
-go shopping (milk, bread, lunch, emergency chocolate)
Tomorrow:
-bibliography
-summary
-introduction
-proofread
-formatting
This is going to bea nightmare fun!
14:30: Wrote a bit over one page already, about 100% more than what I usually get done by this time. Go me.
16:00: Two pages, and that's without tables. Halfway done with the chapter. This would have been so much easier if I could have done this yesterday. Shopping now.
18:40: Shopping done, food consumed, chapter 3 first draft done. Rough, but I don't care. Festivids is live! Terrible timing. Maybe I'll go back to time incentives: one vid for every fifteen minutes of work. Taking a short break now first.
20:10: That was a slightly longer break than I planned. On the plus side, I made a backup copy of everything I've written so far, I moved around a bit to remind my body that sitting is not its only natural state (I'm much better at hula-hooping than Flower btw), and I have a bowl full of pomegranate seeds. Back to work.
21:20: about that... didn't work. Next try.
00:15: Progress is slooow, I get easily distracted. Feels like my brain is pissed because I already did things today and now I have to do more.
05:15: ...uh. Talk about easily distracted and lack of self-control. I kinda-maybe-sorta watched the ASG skills competition *sigh* At least it was fun? I'm even still able to think, I finished most of the preparation for the next chapter and just have to write it tomorrow. I did about half of what I wanted today, but compared to the last, hm, two years or so, I did really well! I definitely still have a chance to finish. Now a few hours of sleep.
Sunday, 15:45: Got my morning procrastination out of the way, figured out a structure problem, and already wrote a few paragraphs. Goals: finish this chapter by 5pm, finish completing the other three chapters by 9pm, if I finish the summary and bibliography by 11pm I can watch the ASG, and then I only need the introduction and formatting. Hard, but doable. LB said he'll take a long nap so he can stay up late in case I need to call him <3
17:00: not quite done, but progress has been made and I should be finished in an hour, fingers crossed.
18:00: good news, I think the chapter will be quite good. Bad news, still not done, maybe two thirds. I'm very much looking forward to finishing it because then I will take a nap.
19:00 chapter done, and I don't even think it'll need a lot of revision later. Now food, then nap, then a list of what I need to do to complete the other chapters.
21:00 food took longer than anticipated. The nap was great. I have a clear list of what comes next and it's all stuff that I can do. The summary will be the most annoying. I've decided I only need the summary structure before 11pm to watch the ASG. (I really hope I have it by then because my confidence in my self-control not to watch the ASG regardless is not that high.)
22:50 The gender segregation chapter was much worse than I remembered :( Especially in comparison with the new ones I wrote. Cleaned up now, but I also remembered some things I need to add to the gwg chapter. Well, "need." I could probably leave it as is if I absolutely had to, but I have the time and while finishing is the most important thing I do want the finished product to be as good as I can make it.
01:15 several edits and a few cases of "screw it I'll leave this out." Who needs tables anyway.
02:40 Finally finished the fucking bibliography. I thought this part would be easy, not that it would take me so long, and I was only minimally distracted by the ASG. (John Scott MVP!) Glad I did it now, otherwise it would have been extremely frustrating at the very end. At least I know that summary and formatting will suck. A few more hours left, but first, dinner.
03:15 Trying to write the summary, failing to make it sound not stupid. Oh well. Only three or so more hours, I'm still flip-flopping between "I can do this" and "oh my god asdsdfasdfa."
04:10 Summary done! Now intro, then putting it all together, formatting, polishing. 2-3 more hours. I don't want to do anything anymore -.- But then I'll be free! Finally! (well, mostly.) Light at the end of the tunnel.
04:50 Intro done! The point of handing it in comes steadily closer. I'm getting ever more nervous, and I still have work to do.
06:20 Most of the formatting is done, including tables and appendix. I called LB about half an hour ago because I noticed that I was drifting and getting distracted, and talking to him helped me focus. I don't know what I'd do without him. Now only missing: proofreading, cover, send. I estimate it'll take me about an hour. I'm so close, I don't even know how or what to feel.
07:00 DONE DONE DONE. SENT. I feel strange, I don't think I've quite realized it yet. Off to sleep.
Sooo, two days to finish my thesis! I had days this month when it went well and unfortunately more than I wanted that were less good. I stayed optimistic for the longest time, but then the last two days were unexpectedly terrible and now I'm... well, panicking is not quite right, but scared is not too far off. I could still do it, but it's becoming harder to convince myself that I'll manage when I haven't so far.
So, more lists, because crossing things off lists feels good, and making it public makes me feel ashamed when I can't do it and hopefully that helps.
What I still have to do today:
-
-
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- create tables
- create tables for gwg chapter
- tables for unemployment chapter
-
Tomorrow:
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This is going to be
14:30: Wrote a bit over one page already, about 100% more than what I usually get done by this time. Go me.
16:00: Two pages, and that's without tables. Halfway done with the chapter. This would have been so much easier if I could have done this yesterday. Shopping now.
18:40: Shopping done, food consumed, chapter 3 first draft done. Rough, but I don't care. Festivids is live! Terrible timing. Maybe I'll go back to time incentives: one vid for every fifteen minutes of work. Taking a short break now first.
20:10: That was a slightly longer break than I planned. On the plus side, I made a backup copy of everything I've written so far, I moved around a bit to remind my body that sitting is not its only natural state (I'm much better at hula-hooping than Flower btw), and I have a bowl full of pomegranate seeds. Back to work.
21:20: about that... didn't work. Next try.
00:15: Progress is slooow, I get easily distracted. Feels like my brain is pissed because I already did things today and now I have to do more.
05:15: ...uh. Talk about easily distracted and lack of self-control. I kinda-maybe-sorta watched the ASG skills competition *sigh* At least it was fun? I'm even still able to think, I finished most of the preparation for the next chapter and just have to write it tomorrow. I did about half of what I wanted today, but compared to the last, hm, two years or so, I did really well! I definitely still have a chance to finish. Now a few hours of sleep.
Sunday, 15:45: Got my morning procrastination out of the way, figured out a structure problem, and already wrote a few paragraphs. Goals: finish this chapter by 5pm, finish completing the other three chapters by 9pm, if I finish the summary and bibliography by 11pm I can watch the ASG, and then I only need the introduction and formatting. Hard, but doable. LB said he'll take a long nap so he can stay up late in case I need to call him <3
17:00: not quite done, but progress has been made and I should be finished in an hour, fingers crossed.
18:00: good news, I think the chapter will be quite good. Bad news, still not done, maybe two thirds. I'm very much looking forward to finishing it because then I will take a nap.
19:00 chapter done, and I don't even think it'll need a lot of revision later. Now food, then nap, then a list of what I need to do to complete the other chapters.
21:00 food took longer than anticipated. The nap was great. I have a clear list of what comes next and it's all stuff that I can do. The summary will be the most annoying. I've decided I only need the summary structure before 11pm to watch the ASG. (I really hope I have it by then because my confidence in my self-control not to watch the ASG regardless is not that high.)
22:50 The gender segregation chapter was much worse than I remembered :( Especially in comparison with the new ones I wrote. Cleaned up now, but I also remembered some things I need to add to the gwg chapter. Well, "need." I could probably leave it as is if I absolutely had to, but I have the time and while finishing is the most important thing I do want the finished product to be as good as I can make it.
01:15 several edits and a few cases of "screw it I'll leave this out." Who needs tables anyway.
02:40 Finally finished the fucking bibliography. I thought this part would be easy, not that it would take me so long, and I was only minimally distracted by the ASG. (John Scott MVP!) Glad I did it now, otherwise it would have been extremely frustrating at the very end. At least I know that summary and formatting will suck. A few more hours left, but first, dinner.
03:15 Trying to write the summary, failing to make it sound not stupid. Oh well. Only three or so more hours, I'm still flip-flopping between "I can do this" and "oh my god asdsdfasdfa."
04:10 Summary done! Now intro, then putting it all together, formatting, polishing. 2-3 more hours. I don't want to do anything anymore -.- But then I'll be free! Finally! (well, mostly.) Light at the end of the tunnel.
04:50 Intro done! The point of handing it in comes steadily closer. I'm getting ever more nervous, and I still have work to do.
06:20 Most of the formatting is done, including tables and appendix. I called LB about half an hour ago because I noticed that I was drifting and getting distracted, and talking to him helped me focus. I don't know what I'd do without him. Now only missing: proofreading, cover, send. I estimate it'll take me about an hour. I'm so close, I don't even know how or what to feel.
07:00 DONE DONE DONE. SENT. I feel strange, I don't think I've quite realized it yet. Off to sleep.
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Date: 2016-01-30 05:44 pm (UTC)Now why couldn't I have done this last week, so much less stressful.no subject
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Date: 2016-01-30 04:29 pm (UTC)Edited to add: Also, in connection with your comment above about annoying tables, I had planned annoying tables too, and ended up submitting my dissertation without them. So far, the sky hasn't fallen!
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Date: 2016-01-30 11:31 pm (UTC)Hang in there, YOU CAN DO IT!
(Is your deadline first thing Monday, or could you also take some time to finish things up?)
(Also, reading this I get like, second-hand anxiety and I am SO GRATEFUL that I never have to finish a paper/thesis again in my life. That is something to look forward to: once you're done with this particular thesis, you're DONE!)
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Date: 2016-01-30 11:47 pm (UTC)It's frustrating to look at this thing I'm writing and know exactly what could be done to make it a lot better if only I had either had more energy or still had more time - but whatever, done is DONE. I will sleep for a day and celebrate for two days, and then celebrate for a week when I get the confirmation that I passed. Longer, probably.
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Date: 2016-01-31 06:21 am (UTC)Edit: I think I wrote a bit of a confusing cheer post, but I hope you know what I'm trying to say anyway :D
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Date: 2016-01-31 02:47 pm (UTC)I wish I knew when she comes to work on Monday xD Might buy me a few hours, but seems risky, and I didn't think to ask before. Eh, in an emergency, hopefully won't be necessary.