To panic or not to panic

In the next three weeks I have to do three presentations, three papers, and one exam, not to mention all the homework. I have barely started most of it. This weekend I'm away with friends, next Saturday I'm debating in Budapest, and we have a choir concert somewhere there in the middle. I'm constantly switching between being grateful that I'm not panicking and worried why I'm not, except during the times when I am panicking and reading fic to distract myself because I am stupid and have no self-control. It's good that I'm not in depressed mode yet, I guess, only I wonder if I'd manage to study more if I were, because I never get things done without pressure. Maybe it's because I'm making an effort to have some time to myself in which I don't worry about university (the weekend with friends in an alpine hut, watching Doctor Who with friends, debating), but it can't be too much time because I need it for studying. I need good grades, because I could really use the money from the merit scholarship, and I already did worse than expected in two exams :(
And as if I needed more writing to do, my sga_genficathon fic isn't even close to being finished and is being very stubborn.

So if I'm not around much in the next few weeks, that's why. (That would be the best case scenario. Worst case, I'm online as much as always and don't finish stuff for university and get into another of my "you can never do anything right" cycles, which I really really want to avoid.)

In other news, I'll be in London for a week in July! There's a debate tournament and A. from our club persuaded me. Of course that was before I found out that the Olympics will be in London and the city will probably be crowded, but whatever. (Traveling, another reason why I could use that scholarship.)