2014, Getting Better

When I look back at 2014, the most important part is "it was better than 2013." In fact 2014 was mostly about my recovery from how depression hit me in 2013. It wasn't as fast or as easy as I hoped it would be, but there was progress. I feel much better now than I did a year ago, and I hope I can say the same thing this time next year.

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I have many plans for 2015!

I want to finish my thesis and finish my Bachelor's degree. I want to move out of my parents' house and to understand my finances. I want to find work, ideally something interesting, that I can do for a year or two, until I feel confident that I'll be able to handle a Master's degree (that I still really want to get eventually.) I want be better informed about current issues and what's going on in the world and I want to be better at talking about it.

I want to make new friends and not lose contact with old ones. I want to visit relatives in New York. I think I'd like to have a romantic relationship if an opportunity presents itself. I want to keep doing things that are fun, like singing and playing hockey and writing fic and watching TV together. I want to cook and bake more often and I want to read more poetry. I want to discover good books and stories and movies and shows and other exciting things I've never seen before.

I want to lose the fear that whenever I'm feeling good I'm just a tiny step away from another major setback. I want to become better at overcoming my procrastination tendencies and have fewer moments where I feel like I have no control over my actions. I want to have more moments where I'm genuinely happy, and I want to be able to enjoy them more when they occur.

Thank you all for being here. All the best to you and your loved ones for 2015.