Travel soon

Organizing a lengthy vacation is a peculiar mix of being excited, being stupidly anxious, "hey that was easier than I thought", "fuck something went wrong here now what do I do", and in my case a stupid lack of sleep and regular food. I decided not to visit Vancouver after all and immediately felt relieved because that means less to organize. A little over three weeks mostly in NYC, it'll be fun. I just wish I was done with all the preparation, or that my brain would find it easier. LB is out of the country, that makes it harder to calm down, he's almost the only one I feel comfortable calling when I'm frustrated and feel helpless and embarrassed about what my brain does.
Ah well, it'll be worth it.