US Election

I'm afraid for my family in the US, for my friends and their families and loved ones, for everyone who looks in any way "different", for anyone who voted for Hillary (or wanted to but couldn't), for people in the countries that will suffer because of the new US president. I hope you all are and will be safe. Love, hugs, good luck, anything you need. People are going to die because of this election and it's terrifying.

I'm not afraid for the people who didn't support HRC or supported Trump, I'm afraid OF them. And angry, so so angry. I'm angry at so many people and institutions, the media, the Republican party, the Supreme Court...
I hope I can use this anger as personal motivation. I involuntarily woke up around 3am today, right when the first polls said that the odds for Trump were above 50%. Went to sleep, woke up three hours later from nightmares, couldn't fall asleep again. I have to do the best I can, now more than ever.

looking for words

I don't really know how I feel yet, it changes so quickly. Sometimes I feel like crying, especially when I read reactions to the result, I can't do that for very long. Sometimes I just want to ignore it for a while and distract myself, and then I feel guilty because I'm lucky enough to be able to do that with where and what I am and so many people are not. I had quick bursts of "I have to get my shit together and get my life to a point where before the next Austrian parliamentary election (currently scheduled September 2018) I can do my part to make sure our right-wing party doesn't win", I hope those last long enough. (If they reschedule the election to next year that's too soon, I won't be ready to do anything.) I've been writing fic, because if I post something maybe some people will like it and it will briefly cheer them up and that's all I have to offer at the moment. I don't know what to say.

Speaking of: You can prompt me with anything and I'll attempt to write you something. Fandoms I know preferred, it probably won't be long but I'll do my best.