Time is weird now
May. 6th, 2020 10:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
schneefinkOverall, I think I'm coping okay with *gestures* everything. It helps that here in Austria the lockdown worked quite well, though I'm worried about what'll happen now that many restrictions have been lifted.
Things I'm having difficulties with:
- Cleaning and tidying up and housework in general – fortunately since we don't get visitors at the moment, nobody cares.
- Going to bed on time. No idea why this specifically is difficult, but it sucks because of course lack of sleep makes everything else harder.
- Whenever I make a mistake it's hard not to immediately become very anxious. I think I'm getting slightly better but it's annoying.
- Talking to people is hard. Not to DD, but everyone else. I've been dodging some calls, I owe several people replies, not exactly sure why this takes so much more energy than usual.
Things going relatively well:
- I started setting regular alarms to drink something and it's actually working quite well, fortunately.
- I still go for a run once every week and it's nice to see how much progress I've made in only a few months.
- I always had problems studying at home, but thanks to my study group and the group project I mostly managed to keep up and am only slightly behind on everything.
- DD and I have a lot of time to cook together, which is nice. She's been experimenting with her new sourdough starter (we still haven't agreed on a name) and we had delicious bread, good pizza dough, blueberry "pancakes", quasi-Lángos… Luxury.
Btw, have I mentioned our new window box herbs? We now have oregano, thyme, verbena, marjoram, coriander, curry, parsley, chive, basil, lemon balm, two kinds of mint, and summer savory.
Edit: I forgot, we also have sage and lavender.
Next on our list: regularly make Smoothies again, because they're delicious (and incidentally also healthy.)
I'm still working from home, and probably will through May, no idea what'll happen after that. I saw my family again, that was nice. This weekend my D&D group is planning to meet again for the first time in many weeks, at least some of us, but instead of our usual D&D session we'll meet for BBQ and boardgames on a terrace large enough we can keep our distance, which I'm sure will be weird.
…aaand now I'm just procrastinating on going to bed, again.
Things I'm having difficulties with:
- Cleaning and tidying up and housework in general – fortunately since we don't get visitors at the moment, nobody cares.
- Going to bed on time. No idea why this specifically is difficult, but it sucks because of course lack of sleep makes everything else harder.
- Whenever I make a mistake it's hard not to immediately become very anxious. I think I'm getting slightly better but it's annoying.
- Talking to people is hard. Not to DD, but everyone else. I've been dodging some calls, I owe several people replies, not exactly sure why this takes so much more energy than usual.
Things going relatively well:
- I started setting regular alarms to drink something and it's actually working quite well, fortunately.
- I still go for a run once every week and it's nice to see how much progress I've made in only a few months.
- I always had problems studying at home, but thanks to my study group and the group project I mostly managed to keep up and am only slightly behind on everything.
- DD and I have a lot of time to cook together, which is nice. She's been experimenting with her new sourdough starter (we still haven't agreed on a name) and we had delicious bread, good pizza dough, blueberry "pancakes", quasi-Lángos… Luxury.
Btw, have I mentioned our new window box herbs? We now have oregano, thyme, verbena, marjoram, coriander, curry, parsley, chive, basil, lemon balm, two kinds of mint, and summer savory.
Edit: I forgot, we also have sage and lavender.
Next on our list: regularly make Smoothies again, because they're delicious (and incidentally also healthy.)
I'm still working from home, and probably will through May, no idea what'll happen after that. I saw my family again, that was nice. This weekend my D&D group is planning to meet again for the first time in many weeks, at least some of us, but instead of our usual D&D session we'll meet for BBQ and boardgames on a terrace large enough we can keep our distance, which I'm sure will be weird.
…aaand now I'm just procrastinating on going to bed, again.
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Date: 2020-05-06 10:42 pm (UTC)All the solidarity and empathy on this one! If you find anything that helps, even if only 10%, I'd love to hear about it.
I think one of the reasons I struggle with going to bed on time is that often when I DO get to bed on time, I toss and turn and can't sleep because of
- worries/Anxiety;
- restless legs;
- low level pain that is only really noticeable when trying to sleep;
- CPAP mask distressing me
so there's a strong punishment/negative reinforcer for going to bed on time.
Whereas if I collapse into bed at 5am or 6am so tired that I am staggering and tripping over my own feet, I usually fall asleep instantly BUT that also means that I don't get enough sleep; and also that I wake up at 2pm which makes life harder...
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Date: 2020-05-07 07:25 pm (UTC)It sounds like we have different problems with it though, so I'm not sure if any of my tricks (if I had some...) would help any. I find it hard to actually go to bed and put away my phone etc., but once I close my eyes I'm very lucky in that I usually fall asleep quickly and don't wake up in the middle of the night.
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Date: 2020-05-08 03:34 am (UTC)Yeah, I have two separate problems:
a) shutting my laptop and actually making myself go to bed, rather than just endlessly refreshing the internet checking for updates even if I am bored and there is nothing new to read. This seems to be an executive function problem and/or an aversion problem;
b) when I do manage to go to bed, difficulty falling asleep.